she saw me the way no other soul does… she felt my pain without a need of uttering a single word… being as what every adolescents are, swamped with disparate incomprehensible moods at times, her retaliations are only but impervious hugs and pestering kisses as if those were the last… couple of days short my seventeenth birthday, she succumbed peacefully in the afternoon of September 7th…the hugs and kisses that i thought were too much were enough to last my lifetime.
huge of a deal to loose a mother… irreplaceable. the only one who can give the purest Storge love, far more different than a father could give. the only soul who could be faithful and yes, no else could ever be. being a mother is the most stressful and demanding job that a woman can ever have… on this generation of working mothers the only solace is sleep and bath time… yet this is the job that is least compensated, rewarded and look-up to.
my perspective on love now is way different than before. i find it funny now how i exhausted in longing of being loved faithfully, i realized that this will only happen once and i had it, she already gave it to me and it’s done… no one has the capacity to give such faithfulness that it is wrong to find it from other people. i will faithfully give but will i expect it back? , i wont!… only a stupid woman will do that… I AM NOT.
yes, i envy those people who still share time with their mothers… i will never have that luxury in life. i admire my sisters-in-law who dearly love my nieces, my high respect to my good friends who sacrificed a great deal in life being a mom, my appreciation to my mother-in-law who has a very kind and gentle heart… the duty that a woman can never retire from. my heart melts to see mothers who enthusiastically prepare the birthdays of their kids, wedding of their daughters and be part in every milestones and storms in life.
i’m glad that a mother’s day is being celebrated although to remind the daughters and sons out there, a day is not enough for a lifetime of selfless job.
to all the mothers, my respect and admiration… and to my mom … romel, raul, rene, ros & I will always have you as our number ONE!
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